sometimes
i feel like
tearing my chest
wiiiiiide open
because
that way
you could see my soul
gasping
in the great expanse
sometimes
i feel like
staring into
the sun
and speaking out
in the tongue
in which it speaks to me
sometimes
i want to scream
until i cough up blood
and phlegm
so that
for a moment
you would all
understand
and then
the feeling subsides
and i return back to me
— ptkh 072917