I will do my best to be kind to you.
It’s hard, sometimes.
I am so used to people wanting to hurt me.
I am so used to people wanting to be cruel to others.
It is so hard to see that cruelty and say,
I will do my best to be kind to you.
I want to scream instead.
I want to punch instead.
I want to grab people by the shoulders and ask them,
Why?
Is it because you’re hurt?
Is it because this is the way you think the world works?
And when I do that,
When I feel that way,
When I think that through,
I realize:
I want to scream because I’m hurt.
I want to punch because I think this is the way the world works.
I want to grab people by the shoulders because
I’ve been fed into the cycle of cruelty
And that feels like the only way out.
I will do my best to be kind to you.
It’s very very hard sometimes,
But I think this is the way the world should work.
And so long as I’m part of the world,
I will do my best to be kind to you.
ptkh (Clio the Kitten)