to become
i must first unbecome
i must first tear down
the brickwork and mortar
of a lifetime of pretense and subterfuge
laid upon me
cemented around me
but… wait:
it is easier to play the victim
than to account for myself
and tear down my own illusions
and rebuild anew
deconstruction
precedes the becoming
proceeds from the unbecoming
and from that detritus
will rise
(no, not a phoenix, that is too prosaic)
but just a me
the real me
which is the me i wish to be
04.13.23